I hate how the numbers on a scale can make me feel any kind of emotion, negative or otherwise.
It’s been 2 weeks. I’ve lost 3 pounds. I hate that that makes me happy, having lost weight. I feel sick with myself (and it isn’t just the hunger quietly gnawing at me). Who says I’ll be able to go back to normal once i’m back at my original weight? All I’m doing is worsening my relationship with food. But I don’t see myself working to fix it anytime soon.
i don’t really know what else to write. i’ll write again soon, hopefully about something a bit more positive.